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Publisher, Rural Fiction Magazine; publisher, The Chamber Magazine; founder, the Farmington Writers Circle. I have written short stories and poetry for many years. In my careers as a Naval officer and in the federal government, I have written thousands of documents of many types. I am currently working on a second edition for my poetry collection and a few novels.

“The Hailstorm” Short Story by E.C. Traganas

​It was still dark, opaquely black, with just a faint strip of light from the village square’s streetlamp peeking through the shutter. It couldn’t possibly be time to rise. I pulled the itchy goat’s wool blanket with the threadbare satin hem over my neck in half-sleep as I lay on the wooden floorboard with only a thin comforter for my mattress. I had slept badly the night before: a field mouse had somehow wandered in from the storehouse below and found its way into my room. At one point, as I frozemotionless on my rock-hard pillow alerted by the faint pitter-patter of the tiny foraging rodent, I had locked glances with its beady seedlike eyes in mutual alarm before pulling the blanket up even tighter hoping to ignore its intrusive presence. But it was now long gone, and I struggled to shake off the torpor still holding me in its grip. ​

​The alarm clock on the mantel had shot off with a shrill clang simultaneously with neighbor Kira Katina’s cockerel sounding its second pre-dawn crow. It was precisely four-thirty, well before sunrise. There was no delaying now. I jumped up and sprang about with the elasticity of a hare, rolled up mymattress, folded my bed-things and dressed myself in the early morning chill. Then, the green-painted wooden shutters had to be opened. One of them, overlooking the steep reclining cobblestone path to the busy square, was kept permanently locked. Aunt Lidia was not too keen on encouraging neighborhood eyes to pry into her formal living room. The other two windows opened onto Kira Katina’s stone cottage several feet below on the mountain slope. I pushed aside the delicate tatted cotton lace curtains and unlatched the shutters one by one. Straight ahead the mountain range receded towards the town of Nemea still hazy with the indigo dust of nightfall. To the left, thedistant lake mirrored faint salmon undertones of the rising sun now barely visible. The starry vault stretched expansionless above, and I breathed in the crisp morning air immersing myself in the ancient aura of my surroundings with every breath. It was rumored that Aesclepius the mythical Greek surgeon had once walked these very paths millennia ago, and that an ancient lying-in clinic for women in confinement had been founded in his honor not far from the village. These thoughts absorbed mymind as I set about brushing my hair and lacing up my sturdy oxfords. It was mid-September, and I had volunteered to help with the seasonal grape packing on Uncle Stavro’s vineyards. 

​The cold dew on the roofless concrete patio shocked mytired body to attention. From the exposed outdoor tap, icy water poured forth from the mountain spring above. I looked up as Isplashed the freezing liquid on my face and watched as the heavy charcoal-colored rain clouds swiftly parted, clearing the sky in the eastern horizon. In the distance, a tractor could be heard pumping its way down towards the valley. I walked into the kitchen, bleached wooden floorboards creaking under foot. Uncle Stavro and Aunt Lidia were already at breakfast and Iimmediately sensed the unspoken tenor of urgency in the air. On the ivy-patterned oilcloth spread over the wooden table lay a modest breakfast of fresh, warm goat’s milk, powdered coffee, and dried crusts of yesterday’s bread.

​“Hurry, up,” Aunt Lidia commanded. “You’re always so late. We have to leave soon. Did you sleep well?”

​The pungent smell appalled me. “I’m sorry, but that goat’s milk—I don’t think I can drink it. Do you mind if I boil some water for tea? You do have rusks, don’t you? I remember we bought some in town last week.” 

​Uncle Stavro wiped his sleeve over his milk-stained whiskers and laughed sarcastically. “So this is what my sister has done to you in that sleek and civilized metropolis of hers, eh! Eat what you want, but we’re leaving in ten minutes—sharp!”

​Suddenly, I felt acutely aware of my over-refined fussinessand ‘city’ ways. I watched them attack their humble breakfast with the vigor and ravenous animal spirits of a falcon at its quarry, and felt ashamed, realizing that, however I attempted to assimilate myself into their native lifestyle, there remained some habits and traditions that would permanently estrange me frommy relatives.

​When I had finished my tea, the house was locked, the unwieldy skeleton key placed under the pot of flowering basil, and we were off to the vineyards in Uncle Stavro’s tractor. Aunt Lidia fastened a paisley bandanna over her hair then drew a bulky woolen goat’s blanket over our legs to keep away the morning chill. When we arrived at the fields twenty minutes later, neighbor Kira Katina and her daughter  were already hard at work, both carrying large wicker baskets on their shoulders and winding their way between the rows of grape vines picking out the ripe, gilded clusters for packing. I was struck by their thick, ochre-colored tights and black leather slippers that gave them the appearance of graceful, elegant dancers weaving in and out of every cane with artful skill and precision.

​Aunt Lidia sat herself down on a clearing of nettle stumps and baled hay between Mihali, a village elder, and a young bare-chested and sun-browned boy of about fourteen. “You can sit next to Taki,” Aunt Lidia said, pointing to the young day laborer whose mud-caked toes were poking out of his patched brown rubber sandals.

​“OK, now tell me,” I asked with eager anticipation. “I want to know all there is about grape packing.”

​“You have to move fast here,” Taki said, his shy smile exposing a broken front tooth. “Just pick the largest bunches from the baskets, three to a row, and place them together evenly in the crate and line them with sheets of pink paper from the pile. That’s all. Whenever you need another crate, just call out.”

​Well, if that’s all there is to it, I thought. I began slowly, clumsily at first, arranging and rearranging each cluster of grapes, straining to make something of an artistic composition out of the layout. I fussed about and consciously strove for the effect of aesthetic perfection, an exemplary crate that any greengrocer would be proud to display in his prized storefront collection of comestibles. When I called for another crate, Uncle Stavro came poking over to inspect the work.

​He took off his cap, shook off the dust then refitted it over his balding head. “Mehit’s all right,” he said flatly. I was crushed. “But, look here,” he pointed with a stubby finger, “the edges are sticking up unevenly. They’ll be bruised. Try again.”

​This time, I waited and deliberated, silently holding a cluster in my hand. I closed my eyes for a moment to focus myresolve. Then, I fixed my gaze on my neighbor worker’s hands, absorbing his energy, letting his effortless experience and unselfconscious skill flood my thought channels. I began again, without deliberation this time, simply allowing my hands to guide themselves, enabling each bunchstem to come to life and settle itself perfectly into its pre-ordained niche, abandoning any thoughts of forced calculation. The crates now filled themselves automatically as I allowed myself to ride the spirit of their force, blindly, subconsciously, through a mystical process of mechanical memory. Soon, I was listening to the idle chatter allaround, threading the air along with the subtle wildflower-scented breezes.

​“How are the walnut trees going, Mihali?” asked Aunt Lidia.

​“There are twenty of them this year. Three we’ll use for preserves. It’s enough for Katina to handle for our daughter’swedding next January.”

​“How’s the boy—what’s his name—Antoni, isn’t it? He’s from a good family, is he? And Rena’s dowry?”

​“We thought we’d give her twenty acres. Along with Antoni’s forty, that’ll give them a good livelihood for now. But he wants to live in the city. All the young people are moving away. Pretty soon, there’ll be only us elders left in the village.”

​“Ah, Mihali, I feel for you,” Lidia empathized. “Since Amalia married, we’re all alone now, and our only son left for the city. He wants nothing to do with our village ways. What do you think, eh, Taki?” she asked, her eyes still fixated on her work. “Will your parents let you leave, too?”

​Taki didn’t reply. He just grinned and let a roguish expression steal over the corners of his mouth revealing a small dimple on his right cheek. Then, spontaneously, his lopsided lips opened and burst out in song, an old demotic folk ballad that Ihad never heard before. The lyrics were typical: a young man falls passionately in love with a village maiden called Marigówho he secretly meets in the moonlight. She refuses to marry him; her eyes are set on another. But his heart is aflame and he vows that on the next full moon he will kidnap her and take her away. 

I listened transfixed by the haunting melodic line, and felt the rising warmth of the midday sun gradually fill the air. As my hands worked abstractedly, my roving glance suddenly focused on a nearby pile of hay which seemed to be pulsating and rustling with a secret life force from within. 

​“What is this?” I shrieked in shock. “All this time this—this thing is lying there watching my every move and you said nothing?” 

​Taki and Aunt Lidia burst out laughing. “It’s just a harmless insect,” my aunt said derisively.

​“This thing is massive!” I protested. “It’s at least six, seven inches— ”

​“It’s a giant walkingstick,” Taki said, “a megaphasma. They’re everywhere. Look, they have no wings, they can’t fly—” He fearlessly picked up the slender straw-colored creature between his brown calloused fingers and held it tauntingly over my head.

​“Stop it! Please, take it away—”​

​“Just so you’ll know what rich little treasures we have here in the village,” he said smiling knavishly.

​Overhead, converging layers of nimbostratus clouds were rapidly starting to block the sun. Uncle Stavro sensed precipitation and coaxed the women to collect as many grapes as they could. “God forbid there’s a hailstorm,” I heard him mutter. “It will be our ruin.”

​The baskets and crates were hastily covered with blue tarp,and as the first raindrops began to fall Uncle Stavro called us all to the small wooden shed nestled at the slope of the hill overlooking his grove of fig trees. Aunt Lidia unpacked a woven hamper and spread out a meal of sour bread, cheese, olives, tomatoes and scallions on an oilcloth over the bare earthen floorwhile Taki was sent to unstrap a large wicker-wrapped wine bottle from the tractor. We tore into the food and ate heartily—all seven of us—cramped as we were in the narrow ramshackle enclosure, sharing drink from a pair of tin cups. 

When the plates and napkins were cleared away, Mihali produced a ragged pack of cards and shuffled out a game of Kumkan with Taki, while the women grouped themselves together with their knitting. I sat with Uncle Stavro before a small opening in the thin wooden wall, the only source of light.

​“You know,” he said teasingly, “right there where you were sitting, your mother was once bitten by a scorpion when she was a little girl. She almost died.”

​“Oh, no—why didn’t you warn me, Theio?” I asked. “It was bad enough to be surrounded by swarms of wasps and dragonflies. And, wait—snakes, horseflies, spiders, who knows what other hideous creatures. If I had known that,” I said brushing myself  briskly, “I might have just stayed at home!”

​“That’s just why I didn’t tell you,” he chuckled. “And the horseflies—they’re the worst, aren’t they!”

​The sky darkened abruptly and low-flying clouds swept over the vineyard almost touching the ground. A faint rattle on the corrugated tin roof increased to a deafening clatter; tiny crystalline pebbles suddenly began to pound through the window and in the distance, through a wedge of sunlight near the fig grove, they glistened like illuminated chips of pearl jewelry. No sooner had they appeared, when the rainfall subsided.

​“Thank God it wasn’t serious,” sighed Aunt Lidia while crossing herself.

​“Doxa si o Theos—God be praised!” nodded Kira Katina.

​The clouds drifted away rapidly, the sun reappeared, and from the direction of the distant town of Nemea, a rainbow formed in radiant ethereal particles stretching above us in a pastel-colored arch over the valley. I looked out the window entranced by the spectacle. The mountain range that housed all the neighboring hamlets formed an endless procession, like an army of ancient helmeted warriors—sentinels of a collective past that joined everyone present in a shared ancestry—spreading in grandiose symmetry steplike towards infinity, one stony crag rising behind another in every direction like a mythical landscape. This is my mother’s birthplace, I mused enraptured, letting myself be drawn into the grandeur of themountains, and the archaic legacy of the vista.

​We returned to work for two more hours, and I now let myself be absorbed into my labor with a rush of exhaustive fury. At four o’clock we loaded the crates onto Uncle Stavro’s tractor and headed back to the village following behind by foot. 

 “You worked hard, didn’t you?” he said encouragingly. “That was real farm work you were doing.” I thought there might be a veiled patronizing undertone somewhere in his praise, but only smiled in reply. 

When we arrived at the junction on the main road, the agent was already waiting for us with his truck. After inspection, he congratulated Uncle Stavro on his yield for the season, and settled a price for the load. As I began to ascend the steep slope home, I overheard his whispered murmuring as he drew my uncle aside. 

  “I see you have a new worker. We’ll have to redo some of the crates, you know. We’ll deduct for the extra labor. Make sure this doesn’t happen next year.”

​I knew I had overslept the next morning. When I awoke late at seven thirty, the village was eerily quiet except for the occasional bleating of the ewe below in her pen. Padding to the kitchen, I found the note my aunt had scrawled on a torn strip of lined notebook paper resting under a pack of rusks: 

Gone off to work on Mihalis harvest. Back by sundown. Have dinner ready when we return.

It was good to stay home.


Author of the debut novel Twelfth House and Shaded Pergola, a collection of short poetry with original illustrationsE.C. Traganas has published in over a hundred literary journals. She enjoys a professional career as a Juilliard-trained concert pianist & composer, and is the founder/director of Woodside Writers, a literary forum based in New York. www.elenitraganas.com


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Illustration: “Village Square, Corinth” — Watercolor & gouache by E. C. Traganas 

“Nobody Loves” Microfiction by Thomas Elson

“A mime? What the hell?”  My friend said that afternoon as the entire student body shmushed through the doors and into the auditorium of the newest high school in the state. 

This was the third school assembly arranged by the well-traveled, very well-read, quite elegant English teacher and theater director about whom rumors swirled.

Voices clattering, the students plunked into their seats.
The lights dimmed.
The curtain parted.
A man –
rail-thin,
attired in a black-and-white horizontal-striped sailor-neck,
long-sleeved shirt,
black pants,
thin slippers with no soles

sauntered onto the stage
arms erect at his sides
hands stiff
toes pointed
The crowd sat in silence.
He bowed humbly
walked lightly
sat gently
gesticulated effusively
emoted silently

His face morphed into glee, despair, then confusion as music piped from the stage toward the audience.
Within moments, his feet moved as if to the sound of tiny pebbles clattering onto the wooden stage.
The mime ducked,
remained in character while he
jerked his head right and left.
raised his hands to shield his face.

Hard pebbles of uncooked macaroni were slung by kids
too young to drive legally – only four of whom would graduate from college – few of whom would marry only once –
and only one of whom would ever return.

After the assembly, the English teacher bounded toward the stage,
waiving a blue box he must have picked-up on the aisle.

He demanded silence, then admonished the crowd for long minutes - about
manners, decorum, respect –
until the principal intervened
to dismiss them.
However, to this day, no one has answered the key question:
Who the hell brings a box of macaroni to a high school assembly?

Thomas Elson’s stories have appeared in multiple journals, including, New Writing Scotland, Short Édition, Selkie, New Ulster, Lampeter, Moria, Mad Swirl, Blink-Ink, Scapegoat, Flash Frontier, Bending Genres, and Adelaide. His story, Trapped Inside, was nominated for the Pushcart Prize. He divides his time between Northern California and Western Kansas.


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“Bivalve Evening” Poem by Matthew Sorrento

Little Jesalee finally
shucked her first shell.
For months, the preteen
was only allowed
to shovel empty oysters,
crunching loud
into the pail.
The broken bits
smelling like hot streets
she'd left in Baltimore
across the bays
before coming to Bivalve, NJ.

Her family shack
was some way in the marsh;
though no shore seen there,
the shuckers owned the air.

The knife was heavy, but her
mommy held the wood handle
steady in her hand,
showing just
how to break it open
and get the meat
for frying.

Jesalee held
the smooth inside,
as mommy rushed
back to work.
Shells fell on and on
and, for the girl
never stopped,
long after she'd left.


A tribute to the transplanted shuckers of Bivalve and surrounding areas.

Matthew Sorrento is editor of Retreats from Oblivion: The Journal of and Film International Online. His poetry has appeared in The Five-Two and The Ekphrastic Review, and he has contributed reviews and essays to the Los Angeles Review of Books, CrimeTime, and Noir City Magazine, with introductions forStark House Press Crime Classics and booklet essays for Arrow Video. He teaches film studies at Rutgers-Camden, and his edited collection, Becoming Nosferatu: Stories Inspired by Silent German Horror (co-edited with Gary D. Rhodes), is forthcoming from BearManor Media. 

Matthew says about this poem: “The poem reflects the experiences of late-19th/early-20th-century Delaware Bay oyster workers in South Jersey, many of whom came from the Chesapeake. I have provided a link about their history, in case it’s of interest. “


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A Journey Through Indian Tea Gardens (3 poems by Sarah Das Gupta)

Up in the Clouds
Christmas Eve,
a scatter of snow.
Cold, very cold
as only the mountains
can be.

Darjeeling, midnight,
bells ringing,
ghosts of the Raj
dream in cold tombs
of lost Indian summers.

Kanchenjunga,
the sacred mountain
Her five peaks
the five treasures
of snow.

Salt, gold, jewels,
sacred scroll,
impenetrable armour,
guarded by
demons of old
Delightful to Meet Earl Grey
Delightful to Meet Earl Grey
Who was the first, original Earl Grey?
People ask in a quite careless way.
He was a British Prime Minister
Always charming, never sinister.

Bergamot was mixed with a black tea.
The citrusy flavour was the key.
This is very much a royal brew,
But humbler folk can purchase it too.

Bergamot oranges flavour the tea
which grow mainly in France and Italy,
a hybrid of oranges from Spain
and lemons grown in South Asian rain.

A Chinese mandarin made the tea
Blent it with bergamot for no fee,
but as a free gift to my Lord Grey.
So, the famous blend was on its way.

Grey lived away in the far North East.
Limescale in the water never ceased.
But the Bergamot redressed this flaw,
which popularised the tea much more!

Its fame quickly spread throughout the world.
The banner of ‘Earl Grey’ was unfurled.
Yet few knew who he could really be,
as they chatted and drank this great tea!

Note; The reason for the mandarin’s gift is
disputed. It is said it was in thanks for Grey’s rescue
of the mandarin, or his family.
A Nice Cuppa
Walking through the gardens
in the cool of the morning,
above loom the mountain peaks,
Green leaved tea bushes
wash against the skyline,
waiting to be picked.

Bright dots of colour,
the pickers are scattered,
on their heads, conical hats
of neatly plaited straw.
On their backs baskets
bags, full of loose leaves.

Behind the tea gardens,
like a scene from
a Bollywood romance,
rise the five peaks of
the mighty Kanchenjunga,
mysterious, snowcapped
sacred, home to
a fearful mountain monster.

Early morning mists
drift through the valleys.
In the East, a pale, orange
banner waves across
the lightening sky.
Ghosts of the Raj
linger among the hills,
lie in the churchyards,
dreaming of sipping tea
beneath Indian skies.

Sarah Das Gupta is a writer from Cambridge, UK who has also lived and worked in India and Tanzania. Her work has been published in twenty countries from Australia to Kazakhstan. It has appeared in over 200 literary magazines and anthologies including ‘The New English Review’, ‘ Moss Piglet’, ‘Songs of Eretz’, ‘Quail Bell’, ‘Waywords’, ‘Cosmic Daffodil’, ‘Dorothy Parker’s Ashes’, ‘Hooghly Review’, ‘Meat for Tea’, ‘Rural Fiction’ and many others. This year she has been nominated for Best of the Net’ and a Dwarf Star’.


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“Fruit of the Buckeye” Fiction by Janet Goldberg

“Uncle Jack,” I heard someone call out. In a mangled straw hat, a jungle-print shirt, and a tie looped around his neck. he looked like a clown, a buffoon. But I recognized him right away, that pony tail, those cloudy blue eyes. For two decades we hadn’t heard from him, thought he was dead. Or at least I hoped he was.

I turned to my husband. “For god’s sake. Of all the places,” I muttered, at the cemetery now for a funeral, my mother-in-law’s.

Teddy slid his meaty arm around my husband’s neck and pulled him toward him, as if they were buddies, saying, “Damn shame.  Damn shame about grandma” over and over, clearly sloshed. 

I did the math. He had to be thirty-five by now, yet, despite all the drinking and street-living, he still looked boyish, handsome, the quarterback of the football team, though as far as I knew he’d never even graduated high school.

“Now don’t you embarrass me.” Jack’s sister Nadine came over. She yanked him away. Wearing a dress and heels, she was wobbly herself, though it wasn’t from drink. She never drank, despite having plenty of her own problems. 

In the meantime, Rosa May, reduced to a pewter urn sitting in a small hole surrounded by green tarps, would have been fuming. A long time ago she’d gotten a restraining order against him, but over the years, whenever his name had come up, would say, shaking her head, smoke swirling up from her cigarette, “Such a sweet baby. Can’t understand it. Wasn’t he Jack? Now don’t tell me he wasn’t,” and my husband, ever his mother’s favorite, the one that turned out good, would gently remind her that Nadine had been sweet before she’d gotten hit on the head and raped and started having babies at fifteen, a dozen or so by the time she was through, no one exactly sure what had happened to most of them.

As for me, Teddy was the last person I wanted to see, even though I knew Jack had always had a sweet spot for him, had wondered about him. Before we’d married, he’d been living with him, and when Jack introduced me and then went back in the kitchen to prepare dinner, Teddy threatened me.

“He hates women,” Jack had said afterward, when he’d driven me home, explaining how Teddy had been sexually abused by a next-door neighbor. 

I’d said if he moved in with us—we were planning on marrying then—I’d be a goner. 

“Now don’t you embarrass me,” Nadine repeated, waving her finger at Teddy who was now standing there with his hands in his pocket. Then for some reason she giggled. It sounded like a machine gun.

Stepping back a little, I turned a little, gazing at all the other headstones. A simple, humble rural cemetery it was. Plastic flowers and angelic figurines sat in front of headstones. At the fence line a half dozen cows from neighboring ranchland, heads hanging over, were gazing at us. I glanced back over at Teddy, hoping time and decades of booze had brought on a certain amnesia. I remember how we’d been on the deck together, Jack in the kitchen. It was so dark I could hardly see Teddy. “You better not mess with my Uncle Jack,” I remember him saying. He was just a kid then, but the way he’d said it had made my skin crawl. 

“So how’ve you been? How’ve you been? How you been, Uncle Jack?” Teddy slapped him on the back now, then gave him a soft punch on the arm, all the while his head slowly weaving and bobbing like a stunned boxer’s.

“Now you shush, Teddy,” Nadine said. “Vernal wants to get started.” Her skittish eyes darted back and forth like spooked minnows. “A nervous tick,” Jack had said, and I wondered if that had started after the rape. She’d been knocked on the head apparently too. 

As we situated ourselves around the gravesite, some people sitting, some standing, the sky which had been overcast, cracked open, letting sun through. Earlier it had rained, and now I started thinking about the worms that had unearthed themselves, their chalky smell, how the sun would soon dry them up if the birds didn’t get them first. We sat down. From behind I felt a hand touch my arm.

“Sweetheart.” It was Rosa May’s sister Auntie Lou Lou, dressed in lime pants and a checkered blouse, her annual Christmas outfit. Soft white ringlets framed her face, and the points of her horn-rimmed glasses jutted out at the edges of her eyes. “Isn’t it just terrible,” she said, shaking her head. Stooped a little, she’d been sick in the pancreas but wouldn’t say if it was the cancer com back. 

“I’m so sorry,” I said, taking her hands, withered things, all the veins protruding.  

 “I mean about Trashbin,” she said. 

Jack had told me that about how she and her late husband had run him over, just a puppy then, on some lonesome road out to Las Vegas and then got him fixed up. But after they brought him home, he ate everything in sight.

Auntie Lulu pulled a cedar box out of her bag, a paw print on top. “Can’t we just send him to the Lord with Rosa May? Just mix him in there.”

I looked behind me, at all the chairs, three rows filled with people I didn’t know. I started to stand up. “Here.” I took Auntie Lulu’s hand. “Sit.”

She started moving backward. “Oh no, you honey. That seat’s for you.”  

“I’m not family, though,” I said, but she was already shrinking toward the small herd of mourners milling some distance behind. For decades, she and Rosa May had lived in separate apartments in the Glendora Palms, spying on each other through parted curtains, across the courtyard, the feud about a car or money or whose children turned out worse: one a rapist, the other a child molester. 

I peered at the mourners now, wondering which was rapist, which molester, but in my husband’s family it was hard to know whose children were really whose, what was true and what wasn’t, when I heard a man clear his throat. It was Vernal, an old friend of Rosa May’s, standing behind a podium, flipping pages of a large, leather-bound Bible, with yellow post-its sticking out of it. With his black suit and white hair he was very dignified looking, a stout statue.

  I sat down again and discovered another chair now beside mine. Slouched down in it, head drooping on his chest, Teddy was snoring lightly beneath the shade of his thatched hat. Too late to say anything, I squared myself to the podium, then I placed my hand at the back of my husband’s neck and leaned into him. When he’d gotten word that Rosa May was gone, he’d just gone silent. That’s how he was when someone died.  

“We shouldn’t think of this as the ending of life but the beginning,” Vernal began. “Rosa May wouldn’t have wanted you to be sad for her. Her entrance into the Kingdom of Heaven.” Vernal looked up at his raised hands, large pink hands, hands that in their youth could have conducted orchestras, summoned thunder, or throttled chickens. Then he looked down at the Bible, on the brink of quotation, of profundity, and then, his finger stumbling across the page, he peered over at us. “She’s looking down on us right now. I know she is. Her loved ones, her friends.” He cleared his throat again, and beside me Teddy had come to, clucking his tongue, saying, “Amen, my friend, amen” as if he were steeped in spiritual passion, until Nadine, at the other end, came over and shushed him while Vernal kept running his finger across scripture like a blind man. “Rosa May liked to talk and drink coffee, and she liked trees and the little birds that twittered in them.  She liked screwdrivers and to quote Nietzsche” to which Teddy, said, “Right on,” and everyone looked at him, and he looked at me with his pale blue eyes, and in his still-handsome face I thought I saw mild curiosity, a kind of recognition.

Inside, a small party of us met up at the hostess station of PJ’s, All You Can Eat, in honor of Rosa May, who believed in food, especially at a bargain. At the center of the restaurant were food bars, each shaped like a little square house topped with a steamy glass roof. Once we were given the go-ahead, we all lined up at a counter and took a warm, white plate and utensils and set them down on our trays. Then we dispersed among the various food houses, each one a different nationality–Mexican, Chinese, Japanese, Italian, Greek, and American, where I caught up with my husband who, bent under the roof, was peering at the tins of fried chicken, chicken fried steak, mashed potatoes and gravy, kernels of corn that looked like baby teeth, and string beans glistening in butter.  “This food.” I peered at the steaming houses, the mounded plates passing by. “There’s so much of it. I hope your nephew isn’t coming.”

My husband leaned toward me and said, “He asked me who you were, why didn’t I introduce him.” 

From my plate I plucked a string bean with my fingers and bit into it. Oddly enough that was how Teddy had eaten his food the night we’d first met at Jack’s, with his fingers.  

My husband and I sat down at a table across from Vernal.  A regal-looking woman with a whorl of white hair and pretty sapphire eyes sat beside him.

“I remember you from the hospital, “Vernal said to me as I sat down.  “After Rosa May’s last bypass. Jack’s wife. Rosa May loved you. And Lord knows she didn’t love everybody.”

I looked down at my plate, chicken wings, mashed potatoes, string beans. “I didn’t know Rosa May liked birds.” I glanced out the picture window, at the front of the restaurant, to the huge cement parking lot where pigeons were pecking at the ground. 

The woman beside Vernal suddenly lifted her head and smiled at me.  Her fork hovering in mid air, she slowly turned her head left and right like a cobra. “Where is my husband?” He was here just a minute ago.”  Her fine brows furrowed slightly. She turned to Vernal and peered at him, as if he might give her the answer.

“Darling,” Vernal said, sliding his arm around her, “I’m right here.  We’re in a restaurant. We’re eating.”  

“Oh yes.” She smiled sweetly at the fork, then delivered it to her mouth and chewed. “I’m eating,” she said, “eating food.”

Vernal, leaning across the table toward us, said, “This is my devoted wife, Eleanor. God bless her, she’s got Alzheimer’s. She used to manage a See’s Candy shop downtown.  Isn’t that right, Eleanor? Can’t you just see her in her white uniform? Isn’t she beautiful?” He sat back and beamed at her.  

My husband and I both nodded then went back to eating. What else could we do?  I looked around the restaurant. Most everyone else had eaten a cursory plate and cut out.  

“Don’t you worry about Teddy.” Nadine suddenly appeared and sat next to me. “He’s not to come in until everyone’s done. Then he can feed.”

I looked out to the parking lot again. There he was with the pigeons pacing back and forth, smoking a cigarette.

“The Lord has a plan for everyone,” Vernal said. 

“Well I hope he doesn’t plan on letting him in,” I said.

“I doubt the Lord wants us to be mean, to make him wait out there,” Jack said. 

“He’s drunk,” I said. “Totally sloshed. He could get mean.”

“Oh, honey,” Nadine said, “he’s not like that anymore. He’s got that sickness in his head. Hears voices. He gets them tremors. Now I worry someone might hurt him.”

“Your mother,” Vernal said, rising, “was a good woman.  I’ll miss her.” He looked down at his wife, who was still seated. She’d stopped eating, was staring serenely, immersed in some memory, chocolates nestled in their paper shells, egrets poised in upturned fields, or something else pleasant.

I used to work as an aide in a nursing home, in the memory unit, always had the urge to ask them, “What? What are you seeing?” as if they were psychics of the past.  

But Vernal was already lifting her up by her shoulders, gathering her like a bouquet of flowers. “Come along now, Eleanor.” 

A flash of annoyance crossed her face, but she stood up anyway. At her full height she was taller than Vernal, probably taller than everyone in the restaurant and the whole wide world. Extending her hand to me, she smiled. “Who are you?” She still had the perfect white teeth of a beauty queen.

Through the window my husband and I watched them cross the lot. Teddy stopped pacing and tossed his cigarette. For a minute the three of them were huddled. Maybe they were praying.  

Jack turned to Nadine. “Why don’t you let him in now?”. 

 “I told him if he don’t behave he isn’t allowed in. What he just done at Mama’s funeral. Darn near embarrassed me half to death.” She shook her head. “Barely leaves his room anymore. Like a little mouse, afraid of his own shadow. Always thinks someone’s following him. I’m afraid someone might hurt him.” Nadine stood up and reached into her bag pulling out a green velvet box, J.C. Penney inscribed on it, handed it to me. “Mama wanted you to have this.”

I cracked it open. Nestled inside was a gold ring with a be-be size jade stone in it.  “That’s lovely,” I said, removing the ring from its slit and slipping it on my finger. 

My husband touched the ring. “You’ll need a guard for that.”

 Then Nadine handed me a book. “I’m not much of a reader, so I think Mama would want this for you too.”  She bunched up her shoulders and giggled. Nadine always liked giving presents.

Sonnets from the Portuguese. I opened the cover; inside someone had written, “To my Love, Rosa May.” I looked at Teddy. “Your father?” 

Nadine giggled again. “Oh, I don’t think Daddy liked poetry.”

My husband stood up. He headed back to the restrooms.

Nadine went out to the parking lot. 

Before my husband got back, the front door of the restaurant opened. 

“Now you fix yourself some food and don’t make a nuisance of yourself,” Nadine said, leaving Teddy there, heading to the restroom too.

I turned back around, alone at the table now, except for all the other people eating at their own tables, the ones who hadn’t attended the funeral and were just eating. I was hoping Teddy, in his stupor, would just go sit down at one of those tables with strangers. There’d be commotion, of course, but then again maybe there wouldn’t. 

In his straw hat, he sat down beside me anyway and started shoveling in the food with a spoon, the mashed potatoes and gravy, the turkey, corn, baby carrots. And for a minute I thought he didn’t even realize I was there. If you could imagine people following you, maybe you could think no one was beside you. 

But Teddy put his fork and knife down, his eye catching the book on the table. He took his straw hat off and wiped his hands on a napkin and then helped himself to it. “Sonnets from the Portuguese.”  He flipped through it and then put it down. “I’ve been writing some poetry, you know.”  He looked me full in the face this time. His hair, out of its ponytail, now hung down past his shoulder blades Viking style.  “Lousy stuff, though” he said, morosely. “How do I love thee? Let me count the ways.”  He tossed the book on the table, then rubbed his cheek. “What about you?”

Jack had always said Teddy was a reader, was always stealing his books.

“Well sometimes you have to write the bad stuff to get to the good stuff” came out of my mouth.  

He glared at me sideways. “What do you mean by that?”

“That’s how it works.” I hadn’t meant for it to come out sarcastic. My heart started palpitating. “Not just with poetry. With everything,” I looked over my shoulder for Jack.  I began thinking that he and Nadine had planned this, that together they were watching from some secret corner of the restaurant or in a backroom on a security screen. 

 “Hey, I know you,” he said. “I remember you. You’re the one.” His face contorted. He suddenly stood and pushed his chair back hard, tipping it over.

The restaurant had suddenly gone silent. The bus boys hurrying down the aisles seemed to have frozen. But I held my ground as I’d done that night on the dark deck when Teddy had threatened me. Now though, he was gone, out of the restaurant, back into the parking lot.

My husband sitting down beside me now. 

I peered at Teddy’s plate, the half-eaten food all congealing into a puddle. 

Then Nadine showed up. “Doggie bag, eh?” 

It was sunset when we left, when we drove the winding stretch of Marsh Creek Road, the narrow, two-lane artery that bisected farmland and orchards, the pretty part of the valley. On the way in, we’d taken the highway, the ugly way, so we wouldn’t be late.

 “Look at those,” I said to my husband as he maneuvered the curves. Egrets were dipping their white necks into the green fields. “It was a nice funeral, especially Vernal with his post-its in his Bible. Your mother would have gotten a kick out of it.” 

 My husband, taking another curve, cut the wheel. 

I grabbed of the door hold. “You aren’t angry, are you? You haven’t said much.”  

 “Did you notice that the flowers were missing?  The roses I had sent over?”

“Maybe the florist sent it to the wrong funeral.”

“No, the card was there. I found it on the ground, near the tarp.” He pulled it out of his jacket and handed it to me. 

 “From a loving son” was written in someone else’s hand. I held onto the card, could feel its sharp edges, as I watched the asparagus fields pass. “You don’t think . . .”

 “Why would he?”

I shrugged. “Why does anyone do anything?”

“I told you he’d never hurt you.”

“Your mother said he threatened to kill her with an ax. I don’t think he should have been there.”

“It was his grandmother. And now look at him. Couldn’t hurt a fly.”

“You don’t know that. You don’t know where he’s been. Did you know your Auntie Lulu wanted to dump Trashbin in there with your mother? She had him in her bag, in a box, his ashes.”

My husband chuckled. “Mother did like dogs. Remember, I did grow up on a farm. Ducks, chicken, cats.”

We were passing through the orchards now and all the cheerful signs: Pick Your Own Fruit. Cherries: You Pick. Pick & Eat. Then came Round Valley, a hilly hiking area we’d been to before, a sloping place of tall grasses, wildflowers, old growth oaks, and the fragrant Buckeye trees. 

“We’re going to need some more of those bebobs,” I said, as we passed the entrance, “for the glass vase in the dining room.” Bebobs. That was the name we’d made up for the Buckeye fruit, the dark brown seeds that looked like a buck’s eye. Next fall, when they burst their green pods, we wouldn’t be able to resist.


Janet Goldberg’s novel The Proprietor’s Song was published last year by Regal House, and her story collection Like Human is due out from the University of Wisconsin’s Cornerstone Press in Fall 2025.


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